A boy who was disowned because he was second in everything, is unknowingly unmatched
Volume 32
Chapter 4-Dan Farseed's agony.
(TL:By Rafael,valhallatls.blogspot.com)
--something is wrong.
Dan Farseed was alone and agonizing over it.
Cleo had worked hard and excelled at the Royal Academy. There was a feeling deep in his heart that he wanted to honor him for that. But more than that, a sense of frustration tormented him.
"I can't go on like this."(Dan)
Which did he mean by those words?
Was he speaking to himself or to Cleo?
Dan was trying to suppress the black feelings that were welling up inside him. But...
"Father! Look at me, I go—!"(Cleo)
"Second place again, ......?"(Dan)
"...... Eh?"(Cleo)
One day, when he was having a moment of relaxation.
When Cleo cheerfully came to report his results, Dan said to him,
"Shouldn't you be in first place by now?"(Dan)
These were the kind of words that should not be directed at a brilliant son.
Dan should have understood that better than anyone.
The moment it left his mouth, he could not stop his emotions.
"Enough! We don't need half-talented people in the dukedom!"(Dan)
"Ugh, wah......!"(Cleo)
The next thing he knew, he was shoving his son who came running to him.
Dan huffs a moment later. Cleo doesn't seem to understand what happened. Fortunately, he doesn't seem to be hurt, but that's not the point for his father.
What had he just done?
He had raised his hand against his beloved son and treated him badly.
This fact casts a dark shadow over his mind.
"...... let me be alone for a while."(Dan)
He tried his best to cover it up and finally squeezed out a small voice.
Cleo trembled, and he wondered if Cleo was now afraid of him.
Dan was filled with regret.
"Why ......? Something is wrong with me ?"(Dan)
A sense of frustration at not knowing what it was, and a sense of guilt at not knowing the cause.
Between the two, Dan Farseed continued to agonize.
"If this is not the case, then I have to steel my heart ......!"(Dan)
He knew he was about to do something decisive to Cleo.
Such intuition was born in him. However
"Should I really do that........Can I really do that to my son?"(Dan)
Dan could not give an answer.
And the months and days passed mercilessly. ......
TL Note- We will finally know the answer on the next chapter.
OOF. This chapter is both sad and terrifying.
ReplyDeleteIt is sad because this chapter all but outright states that he still loved his son even as he was getting ready to disown him.
And it is terrifying because it is quite clear some external factor was influencing his mind at the time, and his awareness of such was not entirely absent either. He had to watch as he was unable to stop himself from being horrible to his son. Not knowing what has come over himself.
It kind of reminds me of a real life situation i heard about. A guy who was previously a sweet guy started abusing his wife. The change was quite abrupt too. I am not much for dragging out stories I cannot remember much of the details of so I will get to the point: the guy had a brain tumor that was affecting his behavior. If I remember correctly he did eventually recover after getting diagnosed and was able to make it up to his family.
Perhaps my memory of that real life story is what makes this chapter extra sad and terrifying. While something more supernatural is at play in this story, in real life there are mundane equivalents that have happened. Someone starts being horrible to those they care about through no fault of their own. While the causes would be more mundane in real life, like a brain tumor for example, it is a sadly realistic possibility that a loved one could change horribly in behavior because of a brain disease. It is why dementia is also one of the saddest diseases to see progress in a loved one.